What am I doing?

I wish I was a much better blogger. I can't seem to get in the groove. There are so many moms out there who have something so thoughtful or creative or updating on a hobby or something that they are working on. Sometimes I feel so plain and like I should be doing so much more as a wife and mother. Especially since I'm still on mat leave. I think I need to be more focused in on stuff, I get distracted and even though I'm busy all the day long, I still feel like I waste a lot of time. How is that? I chat on the rare occasion, I don't sit on here and play games. I did that more when I was pregnant with Benjamin. I watched a movie called Julie and Julia a while ago and it was all about Julie Child the cool chef and a girl named Julie in present day who decided to spend a year cooking one of Julia Child's recipe's each day. Then she would blog it and ended up with many followers. How do I get more out there? I want to be more than I am. Not in the material sense. I'm content with what I have. I just want to be more effective in my roles as a wife and a mother. I know that God is the only way to change myself. I can't do it in my own strength. I'll be praying and asking him more what He wants me to do. Am I to homeschool my children? Do I need to work more than just sleep shifts on the weekends? Is there something that I can do from home to create an income? Is there something unique that I can pursue as a job? Lots of questions that I need answers to, in His time of course. Anyways, thanks for listening and I'm going to post this now.